You know that feeling you get, when you've met the 'one.'
Yeah, so my best friend has it. She called me today saying she is in love with a boy who makes her breakfast everyday, while also making her smile equally. She said that she woke up one day just knowing that he was the one and although they're both crazy for each other, they're planning each detail out so they can account for it.
"A, he's perfect. Everybody adores him!" And the next second, my face broke into a smile. Not like I was empathizing with her, I just imagined what that would feel like and it brought a smile to my face. Vicarious joy, really.
An hour later, my oldest guy friend called me saying he's getting married in four months. And I was like, "Man, it's an epidemic!" I was waiting to tease him to no end, but he sounded (if this is possible) more happier than the best friend! I haven't ever heard him this thrilled for as long as I've known him.
He told me this girl was not much of a party person or a social bee, but she was kind and intelligent. And that she made him smile.
So, basically 'smile' was the word of the day. He said that whenever he thought about her, he smiled without even knowing he was!
Dude, this sounded familiar. I mean, sure, I'd felt that way. So I nodded along and was truly genuinely happy that two of my closest friends had found love.
The true kind. The kind that makes you want to wake up and live the day! The kind that puts a fire in your heart every time you see them! The kind that brings peace to your soul no matter where you are. The kind that allows you to be stupid and crazy and dramatic; all without explanation! The kind that brings you back to a house you call home, and a person you call family. The kind that lasts.
Call me a hopeless romantic, but I long for it! When S said she'd found her "lobster," I was like, "Even I want!" And she joked, 'To eat or keep?" And I brushed it off with a, "To eat. Lol." But something inside me went, "...and keep."
I feel like an eternity has passed and that I've missed the bus. Like the ship of True Love has sailed on me.
I feel like I once wasn't ready and it came by and I missed it.
I feel like a kid whose ice cream melted because she was too busy trying to eat it in a polite way.
Will I ever get there? To the all-knowing place? To the place that magically sweeps everyone off their feet? Where dragons are slayed and candy hearts come alive! Of spontaneous kisses that spell passion and glances that make moments feel like eternity.
A place that is only a figment of my imagination right now.